Cincuenta y siete: CHEKIT.

You can't mess with dat jaw.

How was your April Fools'? Mine was pretty entertaining! Finally achieved Nirvana on League as I can now enjoy games with no pressure. That's the whole point of playing games, right? Trolled around here and there, cracked up every time someone said that my friends and I were "breaking the meta". Visited all the profiles of the serious serious people, only to find that their elo's just pretty shit. 

Look at this

Portraits drawn by MiG Locodoco. That guy is too funny, I swear. Look at TheOddOne

Close enough.

HEE. bai.

[nerdblog] The Current Meta in LoL

Not only has the NA server adapted to the EU's meta (of having ap-mid, bruiser/tank top, and ad carry + support btm), it's been quickly adapted by people in the SEA server as well. I don't only see it in Ranked games, but also in normal games.

Personally, I hate the idea of sticking to a meta-game. Yes, it wins games and it sets your team up to the point where whoever wins depends solely on skill (and coordination, ofc). It's pretty stale, imo. Having 2 ap carries face each other at mid is just like a competition of who can burst faster. Otherwise, it'd be a farmfest.

When I play, I usually go bruiser-support bot or ap top.

Playing bruiser-support bottom lane means I get to still do dmg, while not taking any farm. I usually do this with Nidalee. With my hp/5 quints and a Doran's shield, I get to harass on both the enemy support and ad carry freely. The idea in mind here is "cost effective". I farm on kills and assists (almost guaranteed every match).

Playing ap top would mean that I would have an "antimage" mid. Certain examples of antimages mid would be Talon, Kassadin, and Leblanc. Usually, I would have a Talon mid to completely destroy the enemy ap carry. Note that ap carries don't really have high armor, so a lvl 3 Rake would deal quite a blow to them. Whilst at top, the only chance of me ever winning the lane would be to kite. Otherwise, I'd just hold the lane and farm safely. Having low armor against a bruiser at top just means it'll be a farmfest for me at top.

This, usually wins the game for me. People who have no idea of how to win games, will stick super close to the meta-game. What they do not know is that there is always a counter to everything.

Also, sticking so close to a meta-game just takes away the fun in playing the game. It's just like we're all tryhards picking up pro strats just to WIN.

Cincuenta y seis

So we're all miserable (self-proclaimed or not),
I guess we're all equal in that sense.

Now.

Where does that leave me?

Cincuenta y cinco: Difference between Sg citizens & other people of the world

This.

In sg, if you get pregnant, you get called a whore behind your back.
But in other countries, you get called a whore in your face.

Which is better? I can't decide.


<3

Cincuenta y cuatro: Because the world isn't as nice as you think it be

I feel a lot of hearts breaking recently. And even if I don't know these people, I empathise with them.

Not all of us are strong enough to really "move on" after breaking off of a relationship. Breaking off just lands you in a spot where you're lost, confused, depressed, and your self esteem just got smushed. You wander aimlessly for the next few days, and you'll almost lose sight of your goals in life. They say the best remedy for this is ice-cream, but if there were a possible cure for this, it'd be amnesia.

A wise friend of mine once said that:

"Only time will heal the wounds, but the scars will remain"

 (something like that)

I wouldn't demand that you remove all memories of your terminated relationship; I personally like to keep memories of my ex's. Having said so, I dispose gifts and other redundant items away just to slowly forget.

But hey, we're still young. Almost nobody at our age is going to be interested in "love", but much rather in  "just having fun with my crush". And if you've never tried the latter, you probably should. It's not as big an investment as falling in l0ve.

Pace yourself throughout your phases of life. Good things, after all, come to those who wait.

And if you're a girl, and you just had your heart broken by some guy, know that I care. I want you to cry the pain away, and then slowly build yourself up again.

I hope I didn't dash your dreams of getting married early. l0l.

:-)

Cincuenta y tres: Where do we go from here?

I honestly have no idea.

How did I even end up here? Is it solely my own mistakes that led me here?

Whining doesn't get me anywhere else.

Might as well take life by its horns and just... live.

Mistake after mistake; inevitable, yet irrevocable.

Cincuenta y dos: -

Some people are just so easy to read - like a story book made for 4 year olds. Typical, simple-minded youths that has yet to conform to society.

I have been losing myself recently. I don't really know who I am. I surprise myself with the things I do, sometimes. The person who seems to know me the best now would be my X-boy, and he doesn't even know me that well!

I worry. I don't know what to do with my life starting next year. I think I'm just going to be a promiscuous slut till I'm 30, then I'll kill myself. Easiest way out.